Friday, October 03, 2008'♥
pouring th sauce(:
kling , me , monique ! chefs !
washing hp , stained shirt .
sumptous lunch !
girls !
shot one.
shot 2.
most unsuccessful on e, and
i think i look super unglam.
finally , shot 5 .
sad and happy ,
mood swing and swing .
people change and change.
all th attention , all th care ,
all th sweetness now gone .
sometimes i really think .
what are you thinking .
so near yet so far .
so true .
i regret , regret saying so much .
regret doing so much .
how much change .
how much sadness ,
whenever , i scroll , thru my inbox,
its from warm to cold .
what has changed ?
and why has it changed ?
in th past also not like that .
but now leh .
i feel so helpless.
becus even if i see your or what,
i am speechless.
i don know what to say ,
or what can i say .
things seems so different now .
today, was physics and english paper 2.
paper 2 was relatively easy ,
compared to th first ct .
asf or physic s,
i regretted alot .
and i hope i am right ,
always so indecisve ,
always so no confidence of myself .
last min , i changed to answer to a 4m qns .
and i am th only one who had th answer .
i would have gotten it right ,
if i didnt change. sigh .
i read one 3m qns ,
thought it was another diagram , never even try and left it blank ,
turn out to be i can do .
i am so angry , so disappointed with myself .
physics , will i ever score well for this topic ?
maybe even a pass ?
after papers , had emaths remedial ,
went to kling hse for spag lunch afterwards ,
very fun , i miss th two years back then ,
seeing those guys change ,
happy for them ,
more open now i guess.
talk about friendships and all .
nice chat with you guys (:
went to hp hse downstairs ,
and chat for nearly an hour ,
had a good chat complaining and all (:
contact lens , gave me alot of trouble today ,
eyes tear and tear , was quite pain ,
and eye was red.
how i wish , i was a superwoman ,
becus , i want to keep myself ,
with doing lots and lots of work,
i don want rest ,i don want free time ,
i don want to think .
i want to work ,
i want to revise .
i want to be with friends ,
i don want to be alone anytime.
i don want to walk thru roads ,
that are so familar .
i don want .don wish to either.
好想大哭一场。
With Love, 6:25 PM